Drug Addict

I really can't deal with this nonsense
it's always on repeat, are they godless?
this s*** always got me sick I'm nauseous
and it's always taking more leaving me even more exhausted

but if I'm gonna be honest
then I gotta be the rawest
and I don't want to stop this
I leave it in the past and i reminisce

the hours turn into days
it takes seconds to numb the pain
love the high but the come down I hate
suicide no but we are not living the same

withdrawals got me sick again
I'm done it's not if
it's when and the cycle never ends
always need another hit another fix
I think it's time that I quit
I know I deserve better than this s***
yeah I'm better than this s***
yeah

chorus

I'm tired of the dumb s***
all these drugs and the problems that they come with
put it down just to pick it up for another hit
so done got to quit tired of being sick
not a puppet to the games not a little b****
I'm a big dog making bmoves and this habits got to get kicked
got to get kicked


and I'm tired of playing games again
just to rebound and repeat the sin
and it goes un noticed
all the work that I put in

I'm beyond damaged
its just me warning you
here's the preview I'm probably gonna fuck it up too

Mama said she won't let go
and father said stay strong you hear?
night after night I wanna end the thoughts that appear
but they got a mind of their own

but brotha I can't let go
and sister I don't want to let u know
I'm so close to drifting off again
how do I I fix this

I kinda don't wanna know how to reset my brain and fight these demons
I'd rather get high and sink off to the deep end with all my personal selecrions of different friends thT I sit back sip on drink and get fucked up with hah

chorus

I'm tired of the dumb s***
all these drugs and the problems that they come with
put it down just to pick it up for another hit
so done got to quit tired of being sick
not a puppet to the games not a little b****
I'm a big dog making moves and this habits got to get kicked
got to get kicked

I'd rather get high
are you starting to get it?
maybe I can't be fixed so except ne for who I am
or get dissed colin

Rap, trap, hip-hop, female rapper, aggressive, addict, Chill, Dark, Tense, Female Vocals, Fast (120-168 BPM)