The hunger for Control

Verse 1
My heart is a hammer, beating against bone,
I’m in a crowded room, but I’m entirely alone.
My skin feels like it’s crawling, a suit that’s too tight,
I’m bracing for a disaster that isn't even in sight.
​Chorus
The hunger is a sharp edge that cuts through the fear,
It’s the only thing solid when the walls get too near.
But the anxiety doesn't care if I’m empty or fed,
It just keeps on screaming the same things inside of my head.
​Verse 2
I look in the mirror and I hate what I see,
So I starve myself out, a punishment meant for me.
If I can’t stop the shaking, or the noise in my head,
Then I’ll empty my stomach until my energy’s dead.
​Chorus
The hunger is a sharp edge that cuts through the fear,
It’s the only thing solid when the walls get too near.
But the anxiety doesn't care if I’m empty or fed,
It just keeps on screaming the same things inside of my head.
​Verse 3
People look at me, and I know they’re watching my frame,
It makes me feel hollow, and it burns me with shame.
I’m hiding the shaking, I’m hiding the way that I feel,
While I’m skipping a meal just to make the control seem real.
​Verse 4 (Outro/Bridge)
I’m dizzy, I’m sweating, I’m feeling the room start to sway,
I’m just trying to make it to the end of the day.
It’s not a choice anymore, it’s just how I survive—
The torture of being trapped, and the horror of being alive.

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