Panned out2

These walls are all caving,
Need something worth saving,
But I been thinking lately,
How I just hate the,
Way it all panned out,
I remember in December there was so much hope,
If I knew then, but I didn’t, and now I know,
Now we just spent our days at each other's throats,
I guess that part of the story’s over, the book’s now closed,
But I can still hear your voice, and smell you on my clothes,
There’s nothing ever funny how everything unfolds,
I been living in a dark sunlight,
Nothing ever really stays in my life,
I don’t think I’ll ever get things right,
My heart feel heavy and my chest feels tight,
The way it all panned out,
Wasn’t the way I had it planned out,
But I… no… I’ll be… allll-llll-lll-right…
I keep telling myself that like it’s truth I can borrow,
But every “I’m okay” just turns into tomorrow,
And tomorrow look the same as the pain that I swallow,
Try to drown it in a bottle but it echo in hollow,
Rooms full of memories I can’t rearrange,
Every little thing still got your name,
Even silence got a way that it say what you ain’t,
And I swear I hear you breathing when it’s quiet and late,
Yeah, I tried moving on but it don’t move right,
Every road I take just loop twice,
Every new face don’t feel like,
Anything close to what you was in my life,
And I hate that I still care this much,
When you walked away, didn’t spare this much,
Now I’m stuck with the weight and the air feels crushed,
And I’m talking to ghosts ‘cause you’re not here to touch,
I been writing your name in the fog on the glass,
Then I wipe it away like I’m done with the past,
But it come right back, yeah it never just pass,
Like a song on repeat that I wish was the last,
And I know, yeah I know, I should let it go,
But the harder I try, it just hold me close,
Like your shadow still stitched in my soul,
And I’m scared if I lose it, I lose it all…
So I sit in this dark with a flicker of light,
Tryna piece together what we were that night,
When forever felt real and the future was bright,
Now forever just something I say when I write…

Country, Sad, Male Vocals, Rap Vocals, Slow (66-76 BPM)