Me

Underneath my hardened shell
Past pasted smiles, where none can tell
Hide pain and longing, fear and shame
A dreadful hurt I cannot name
I laugh and talk, keep up the act
I seem quite perfectly intact
But really what appears so whole
Just covers up a shattered soul
I spend my days smiling tight
Then endless tears in the night
The loneliness steals every breath
Till I only wish for death
Early on I learned the art
Keep grinning while you break apart
Don't share, dont tell, dont dare feel
Years of doubting - is this real?
I buried thoughts, brain sealed shut
Smiled on while punched in the gut
Pressed my ears when it got too much
Learned that feelings stay untouched
And still my plastic smile's glued
Laugh airily so the world's fooled
But underneath I'm screaming blue
For someone, someone, to see through.

Melancholic, Whispered Vocals, Moderate (76-108 BPM), Sad