16

It’s weird how a smell can ruin my whole night
How one little sentence pulls me back in time
People laugh it off, say “you’re too sensitive”
But they don’t know the places my mind still lives

I can still hear your voice years later in my chest
Still brace for the worst when somebody gets upset
And I know it sounds dramatic when I try to explain
So I swallow half the story and just smile through the pain

Pre-Chorus
I’m not asking for your sympathy
Don’t need tears or apologies
I just wish for once somebody’d see
These scars don’t disappear quietly

Chorus
I hate that little things still trigger me
Songs, words, streets, the way people speak to me
And I’m tired of sounding like a victim
When I’m only trying to tell you how where I’ve been
You say “everybody’s been through stuff before”
Yeah, but nobody walked through my doors
So how am I supposed to make you understand
When even I can barely hold it in my hands?
I don’t want pity
I just want someone to listen differently

Verse 2
Theres been too much hurt over too many years
Too many nights learning how to disappear
I became “okay” ‘cause that’s what I’m supposed to be
No one stays around for the complicated nights

Now I overthink kindness, panic over love
Turn memories into horror stories
And every time I finally start feeling safe
Something small reminds me nothing really changed
And I’m still the girl I was before
Who shouldn’t trust even in my own home

Pre-Chorus
I’m not trying to relive everything
I’m just tired of carrying it silently
And maybe if you knew the weight of it
You’d understand why I still flinch

Chorus
I hate that little things still trigger me
Random days hit harder than the major scenes
And I’m tired of sounding like a victim
When I’m only trying to show you what I live with
You say “time heals everything eventually”
Then why’s it still attached to me?
How am I supposed to make you understand
When no one else has lived the life I had?
I don’t want pity
I just want someone to hear me honestly

Bridge
Maybe I explain it wrong
Maybe pain sounds selfish in a song
But if I keep it all inside
It turns into a war I fight everyday

And I swear I’m trying to move on now
I just can’t forgive what they’ve done to me and
You don’t have to fix me
Just don’t act like it was easy

Final Chorus
Yeah, little things still trigger me
But I’m learning that surviving changes everything
And maybe I sound broken when I speak
But these wounds were never shallow or weak
I’m not asking you to carry all my hurt
Just don’t tell me what it should’ve been worth
Cause no one else had to become who I became
Just to make it through the days
I don’t want pity
I just want to finally feel understood one day

Sad, Female Vocals, Slow (66-76 BPM), Moderate (76-108 BPM)