Obsessed

Why are you so obsessed
With every girl you can’t have?
You fall in love so easily
Then leave the second it gets bad

You swear she’s different every time
Tattoo her name inside your mind
You call your friends at 2 a.m.
Saying, “Damn, I think this could be it”

And you mean it
At least for the moment
You feel everything all at once
Then nothing by the morning

You’re obsessed
With the rush of the wanting
With the mystery, the haunting
With the almost, not the having
You’re obsessed
You build girls into stars
Fall in love before it starts
But the second they get close enough
You forget who they are
Yeah, you’re obsessed

You memorize the way they speak
Their favorite songs, their coffee drinks
Convince yourself it’s destiny
After barely two weeks

You say, “I’ve never felt like this”
Every single time you kiss
Like forever’s sitting on your tongue
Till forever gets too real to touch

Then suddenly
She’s “too much,” “too emotional”
But really you just miss
The version you invented

You’re obsessed
With the chase and the spark
You need fireworks in the dark
But you don’t know what love is after
You’re obsessed
You crave the butterflies
But kill them once they land alive
You want hearts that stay out of reach
So you never have to keep them

And every girl thinks
Maybe she’ll be the one
Who finally makes you stay
But you don’t want love
You want the feeling right before it

You’re obsessed
With every girl you can’t have
And every time they love you back
You panic like it’s something bad
You’re obsessed
With the dream, not the truth
With becoming someone new
Through the eyes of somebody else
Till they can actually see you

Indie pop, female, angry, annoyed