Find myself

Staring at my bedroom ceiling at three
The clock keeps glowing, keeps me company
Late night spiraling, where do I even start?
Each broken promise sitting on my heart
Mirror shows a stranger now
Don't recognize who's looking back


I'm falling through the cracks
Phone's dark, I won't text back

I'm lost in the dark, trying to find myself
Too ashamed to reach out, can't ask for help
The shame's too heavy, can't face anyone
I'm searching for the ground I lost when I came undonnnnnnnnneeeeee
I'm lost in the dark, trying to find myself



Quiet rivers swallow all my tears
Untold stories I can't bring myself to speak
Every room in this place feels too small
I keep folding up the truth
Like it won't cut through
Like it won't cut through the wall


I'm falling through the cracks
Phone's dark, I won't text back


I'm lost in the dark, trying to find myself
Too ashamed to reach out, can't ask for help
The shame's too heavy, can't face anyone
I'm searching for the ground I lost when I came undonnnnnnnnneeeee
I'm lost in the dark, trying to find myself



If I take one step
Would it change the night?
If I say one thing
Would I still survive?
Maybe healing starts
When I stop the fight
When I stop the fight


I'm lost in the dark, trying to find myself
Too ashamed to reach out, can't ask for help
The shame's too heavy, can't face anyone
I'm searching for the ground I lost when I came undonnnnneeeee
I'm lost in the dark, trying to find myself
I'm lost in the dark, trying to find myself
Trying to find myseeeeeellllfff >

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