PAIN KILLER

[Verse 1]
I walk through days like a borrowed life
Smile in pieces, cut like a knife
Nobody sees what I became
Just a face that remembers your name

I keep my grief in a locked-up chest
Pretend I’m fine like I passed the test
But late at night it leaks through cracks
And pulls me back, and pulls me back

[Pre-Chorus]
And I don’t know where I went
Somewhere between then and when
You disappeared like smoke in the air
Now I’m standing, but I’m not there

[Chorus]
You’re my pain killer, but it’s wearing off
Leaving silence that I can’t shut off
You made it easy to disappear
Now I’m loud in a world that can’t hear
I’m chasing shadows of who I was
But they don’t move when I call their name
You were my escape, now I feel the same
Just a face in a mirror that won’t stay framed

[Verse 2]
I keep my voice in a locked-up box
Talk to the ceiling, count the clocks
Everything here feels paper-thin
Like I could fall right through my skin

I laugh at things I don’t understand
Hold onto moments I can’t command
And I swear I’m here but I drift sometimes
Like I left myself behind

[Pre-Chorus]
And I don’t know where I went
Somewhere between then and when
You disappeared like smoke in the air
Now I’m standing, but I’m not there

[Chorus]
You’re my pain killer, but it’s wearing off
Leaving silence that I can’t shut off
You made it easy to disappear
Now I’m loud in a world that can’t hear
I’m chasing shadows of who I was
But they don’t move when I call their name
You were my escape, now I feel the same
Just a face in a mirror that won’t stay framed

[Bridge]
If I fade into the background noise
Would it even make a sound?
Or am I just another voice
That nobody turns around for now

[Final Chorus]
You’re my pain killer, but it’s gone too far
Left me staring at a broken star
You made it quiet, now I hear too much
Every thought I can’t ever touch
I’m not gone, I’m just in between
A version of me I’ve never seen
You were my escape, now I reclaim
Every piece of me you changed

[Outro]
Still here…
just not the same…
My wrist bleed…
I said your name…

R&B, Trap, Soul, Dark, Dreamy, Gloomy, Sad, Whimsical, Female Vocals, Falsetto, Harmonized Vocals, Choir, Bass, Piano, Synth, Slow (66-76 BPM), Moderate (76-108 BPM), Pulsing, Driving