i kinda still love you.

verse 1

i saw your name the other day
and it didn’t hurt the way that it used to
it was just enough to make me stop
just enough to make me miss you

and i hate the way my memory
cuts the movie at the good parts
like your hand wrapped around mine
and not the way you broke my heart

pre-chorus

’cause if i play it all the way through
i know exactly how it ends

chorus

i kinda still love you
and i wish i didn’t
i wish i could remember all the reasons
why i’m better off without it

but my mind keeps finding versions
where you never let me down
where you stayed the boy i fell for
and didn’t turn around

i know we can’t go back to it
i know the truth is ugly too

but some nights
when it’s quiet
i start thinking
i kinda still love you

verse 2

you’re posting like you’re lonely now
and i hate that i still read it

‘cause you wouldn’t be lonely, would you,
if you hadn’t walked away?

you traded steady hands for wondering
and now you’ve got the price to pay

and i know it’s not my place to say it
but it’s a thought i can’t undo

you had someone who would’ve stayed

and you kinda still do

bridge

was she worth it?

tell me, was she worth it?

was a couple weeks enough
to make you throw away forever?

‘cause she’s gone now

and i’m gone too

so tell me what you’ve got
to show for what you put me through

was she worth it?

was she worth it?

was she worth watching us burn down?

was she worth the nights you swore
you’d never let me hurt now?

‘cause i’m still trying to forget

and you’re posting that you’re lonely

so tell me

was she worth it?

final chorus

i kinda still love you

and that’s the hardest part

after everything you did
i still carry who you were

i can say you broke my heart
i can say i should move on

but if your name showed up tonight
i know i’d stare a little too long

and i hate that after all this time

the place i always run to

is you

i know better now

i do

but i kinda still love you

Indie Pop, Sad, Melancholic, Female Vocals, Acoustic Guitar, Piano, Slow (66-76 BPM)