♤"Hoarder of Love" [dark pop, electropop]

Why do all the good guys always like hoes

Can't stand having such a boring life
so you look for some excitement somewhere
outside of yourself

If you understood real value, though
you would more than just a bang for your buck

But some body in the past done did some damn damage on you

Must have did a one eighty or something
Hurt you so good you ain't even wanna date no body no more

Thinking that it ain't worth all the effort you keep putting in to things without ever really seeing any return from your investment

And you can't really be blamed for thinking this way

After all we're really all just sheep
Really only Pieces on the board
In this game called life everybody gets in on

Like Lambs being led to their death
We've perfectly profiled ourselves into believing in all their bullshit

Seeing no light behind disturbingly vacant eyes
No tears fall when I feel sad any more

Because I've been hurt so badly at some point in time in my past

I got the goods all put away
Only trying to keep company with the ones that ain't just gonna lie to my face

So I'm by myself most of the time
And I'm alright with that in fact I much prefer it

To giving my all to a person who ain't even deserve all that effort I have to put in to keep things being kosher between us

And shit usually only ever go one way
Running into all them damn dead end streets

Gotta me keeping my heart all to myself
These days it's much safer than trying to love

We give up on things too easily
Don't understand the value in working to have something good

Too jaded to see the actual truth of things hidden just beneath the surface we present to people

Is often a bucket of sadness that remains from drowning in the deep of this ocean of pain

Running the rat race
We chase stacks of green paper

Losing out on any real treasure we might have one day maybe had for ourselves

Bitterness misdirecting our hearts into taking solo hiatuses from even trying to be loved any more

The disappointment wearing down a heavy weight upon our shoulders
We stagger under the weight of all the reasons

It's safer if I do just join the remaining single forever club

Than to attempt to care for someone else in a society that can't remember how to love anyone that isn't their self

Fuck it
Shit
Enough is enough already
I'm done
I fucking give up

fake plastic faces, enhanced asses and plastic titties
fucking lies and fake people
Everything I hear
Everywhere I look now

Dating ain't bringing me anything but more pain as of late

Too damn broken inside already to even try with it anymore

getting so damn tired of trying to only ever end up the only one that actually cared
Like every time now

By the end of things it just leaves me feeling bitter and let down

Angry and so fucking frustrated with my life and how things seem to keep turning out the same fucking way no matter
How much I try for it

Why even fight to keep from losing something
That clearly wasn't really working
In the first place

You can't just love and be loved in return by somebody special anymore

I Got more trust issues than I even know what to do with now so

So perhaps everyone would be much better off if I just fucking stick to being by myself and keep my heart under guard
Like everyone else seems to be doing anyway

I freaking give in.
I'll be
A hoarder of my love from now on

I'm gonna just keep that shit to my own damn self
Fuck y'all mother fuckers
I let the hurt change the way I love…and
What a sad fucking thing that is

female,dark pop,electropop