Can't stand having such a boring life
so you look for some excitement somewhere
outside of yourself
If you understood real value, though
you would more than just a bang for your buck
But some body in the past done did some damn damage on you
Must have did a one eighty or something
Hurt you so good you ain't even wanna date no body no more
Thinking that it ain't worth all the effort you keep putting in to things without ever really seeing any return from your investment
And you can't really be blamed for thinking this way
After all we're really all just sheep
Really only Pieces on the board
In this game called life everybody gets in on
Like Lambs being led to their death
We've perfectly profiled ourselves into believing in all their bullshit
Seeing no light behind disturbingly vacant eyes
No tears fall when I feel sad any more
Because I've been hurt so badly at some point in time in my past
I got the goods all put away
Only trying to keep company with the ones that ain't just gonna lie to my face
So I'm by myself most of the time
And I'm alright with that in fact I much prefer it
To giving my all to a person who ain't even deserve all that effort I have to put in to keep things being kosher between us
And shit usually only ever go one way
Running into all them damn dead end streets
Gotta me keeping my heart all to myself
These days it's much safer than trying to love
We give up on things too easily
Don't understand the value in working to have something good
Too jaded to see the actual truth of things hidden just beneath the surface we present to people
Is often a bucket of sadness that remains from drowning in the deep of this ocean of pain
Running the rat race
We chase stacks of green paper
Losing out on any real treasure we might have one day maybe had for ourselves
Bitterness misdirecting our hearts into taking solo hiatuses from even trying to be loved any more
The disappointment wearing down a heavy weight upon our shoulders
We stagger under the weight of all the reasons
It's safer if I do just join the remaining single forever club
Than to attempt to care for someone else in a society that can't remember how to love anyone that isn't their self
Fuck it
Shit
Enough is enough already
I'm done
I fucking give up
fake plastic faces, enhanced asses and plastic titties
fucking lies and fake people
Everything I hear
Everywhere I look now
Dating ain't bringing me anything but more pain as of late
Too damn broken inside already to even try with it anymore
getting so damn tired of trying to only ever end up the only one that actually cared
Like every time now
By the end of things it just leaves me feeling bitter and let down
Angry and so fucking frustrated with my life and how things seem to keep turning out the same fucking way no matter
How much I try for it
Why even fight to keep from losing something
That clearly wasn't really working
In the first place
You can't just love and be loved in return by somebody special anymore
I Got more trust issues than I even know what to do with now so
So perhaps everyone would be much better off if I just fucking stick to being by myself and keep my heart under guard
Like everyone else seems to be doing anyway
I freaking give in.
I'll be
A hoarder of my love from now on
I'm gonna just keep that shit to my own damn self
Fuck y'all mother fuckers
I let the hurt change the way I love…and
What a sad fucking thing that is
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