What if

What if I had walked through that door,
Found you lost in the echoes, like so many times before?
Steam curling around you, a fragile sight,
But I was just too late, lost in the night.

What if I had held your wrist, pulled you from the edge?
Would you have felt my heartbeat, or would you still have fled?
In that moment, would you have seen the light,
Or would the darkness whisper, pulling you tight?

What if I had stayed, what if I had fought,
Could I have saved you from the battles you fought?
Now I’m left with shadows, and a heart full of pain,
Haunted by the thought of what could have been gained.
What if I had held you, would you still be here?
Or did the demons win, drowning out my fear?

I replay those moments, the silence so loud,
Your reflection in the mirror, lost in the crowd.
What if I had pulled you, pulled you back to me?
Would you have chosen life, or would you still be free?

What if I had whispered, told you you’re enough?
Could I have broken through, or would it still be tough?
In that fragile second, would you have seen the way,
Or would you still have chosen to slip further away?

What if I had stayed, what if I had fought,
Could I have saved you from the battles you fought?
Now I’m left with shadows, and a heart full of pain,
Haunted by the thought of what could have been gained.
What if I had held you, would you still be here?
Or did the demons win, drowning out my fear?

But in this haunting what-if, I find my own voice,
Learning to forgive myself, reclaiming my choice.
Though the past may linger, I’m breaking the chain,
Finding hope in the sorrow, and strength in the pain.

What if I had stayed, what if I had fought,
Could I have saved you from the battles you fought?
Now I’m left with shadows, but I’ll face the light,
Carrying your memory, through the long, lonely night.
What if I had held you, would you still be here?
In the echoes of love, I’ll conquer my fear.

So here’s to the moments, the paths left untread,
Finding peace in the chaos, where love’s never dead.
Though I can’t change the past, I’ll honor your name,
Learning to live fully, despite all the pain.

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